“Say What You Need To Say”

So, I highly recommend running to “Rocket” by Def Leppard (as mentioned below), but another great running song is “SAY” by John Mayer.  On days LIKE TODAY when I have a ton on my mind and a million things I need to SAY, I turn on this song and just take off.  For a mile, two miles…three or four miles, I just keep repeating this song as I think of all the things I wish I could say but SHOULDN’T.  After a while, my frustration with the world and things I have no control over, fade.

Josh showed me a fabulous trick that really came in handy today and it really works!  When you’ve just had ENOUGH, you lift up your arm and like a big, lazy bear swatting slowly at a bee, you figuratively “shove” all the stuff you can’t control away, with a nonchalant grunt.  And I’m not even kidding, all those cares just disappear.

Today, after I ran out all my frustrations and “shoved away” all the junk, I could focus on things that were really important and things I really should SAY.

MY FAMILY…the people I love most are what deserve my energy and thoughts.  My little sister, Cari, had surgery this morning.  My parents are in town, Angie’s family changed their vacation plans to go to Disneyland to be here.   Last night we all had dinner together and then, as I was leaving, I gave Cari a hug and fought back the tears as I told her that I loved her.  I had to SAY that, AT LEAST.  But there were so many other things I wanted to SAY, things that kept running through my mind today as I ran to “SAY”.

Cari, my sweet, baby sister.  I love you soooo much!  You are my shopping buddy, my tanning/pool buddy, my dancing buddy (along with Kris 🙂 ), my crazy flip-handstand-gymnatics-trying buddy, my new music discoverer/provider buddy, my sewing/crafty buddy, my crying and laughing buddy.  Even though there are ten years between us, you have always been one of my very best friends.  You are gorgeous, so incredibly smart, HILARIOUS, talented in so many ways, and amazingly strong.  Thank you for being a second mom to Ashton and Emmy and pretty much all the grandkids.  I have so many memories of you working your magic, making babies fall asleep cuddled in your loving arms.   I love you so much, Cari!

Here is a “commercial” Cari made for school.  She was assigned to make a 35 second commercial describing herself.  I smile through the whole thing and laugh along with her at the end, EVERY TIME I WATCH IT!